irish-eyes2

Yea...so I REALLY need to go through all my notifications and send thank you(s) to everyone who was kind enough to fav something.

I told someone I would be glad to look at their art because they left me a nice comment about my pics and asked me to look at their art. I was stupid and forgot to open up another window with their page in it before I sent the comment and now I can't find who the person is or where the comment is so I can check! So if you happen to be the person who asked, drop me a line and let me know so i can look at your art! I feel so bad! Please please please let me find the comment!

I'm rather disgusted that the last journal entry I have made on here was about MJ's death. That was kinda over a year ago sooo yea. Anyways as i was feeling rather....emo today....I started thinking to myself- why the @#$! do i even bother attempting to draw and take pictures when I am no where near as good as millions of other artists on here? I had an epiphany and the answer b*tch slapped me across the face! I LOVE doing this. I hate that I suck at drawing, but every now and then i do something I am proud of and feel a sense of accomplishment! I adore taking pictures, even if they are of fruit, flowers, and other misc crap. The point is I find them beautiful or intriguing in some way. I am no pro at photograpny, but as i take more pictures and figure out better ways of lighting, angles, etc- I get better! I barely have anyone who comments or fav's my art, but I still like it. Like those stupid nectarine pictures...I LOVE those. I love the colors and the angles of the fruit. I do, admittedly, need to start finding better backgrounds for photos or still life and such. The point is- as flawed as my work is, I enjoy doing it and love many of the results! I am going through such a hard time in life right now and it is so empowering to know that I can look at my photographs and feel a sense of pride and accomplishment (<---repeated sentiment ). I NEED to start feeling better about myself and the things i do or else i'm going to end up sending myself to an early grave! This stress and constant heartache/depression is getting me nowhere in life! i ahve decided to start looking for local shops to sell photographs in. they don't have to be anything fancy. Just photos that I am proud of. Photos I want to share. I have to stop feeling discouraged by the lack of comments or favs and start thinking more positively. Perhaps all this crap that has been going on in my life is just the push i needed to change myself and my outlook? I want to be healthy and happy, and taking photos and attempting to draw () are two things that make me feel happy.

So to summarize this ran-----> BOOYAH HATERS!

Rest in Peace Farrah Fawcett, Michael Jackson, and Ed McMahon.

All of them left their mark on history.

Sadly, MJ will be remembered for what he did later in his life and not when he was younger and a great musician.

when will the empty feeling go away?